so… Last night I spent like an hour typing up this long theoretical essay based around the fact that Beck represents the Zeitgeist of the last 10 years, as exemplified by the fact that he performs the theme song to the new movie “Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind,” whose almost old-fashioned and romantic themes of humanism and authenticity overwhelm it’s gimmicry, much like Beck’s new found sincerity is the new pose that isn’t quite as much fun as the old one, but seems more appropriate in this currently very serious world.

But then something went wrong… I attempted to post the update, and rather than it all working everything dissappeared.  I couldn’t get back into the website, everything was messed up and the long essay I wrote was gone.

You know that feeling… even if it isn’t something you’ve put lots of time into, having something you’ve created just disappear really fucking sucks, almost as if someone in a very minor way killed one of your children.

The question I have, though is this… Was God trying to punish me for my hubris and lack of faith?  Or in his infinite mercy, was he preventing me from allowing something to get out there that would have made me look like some sort of pretentious, post-modern, half-baked Greil Marcus wannabe?  Not that such an impression wouldn’t have been accurate…

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Comments

Jeff

2004-04-06T16:25:30.000Z

I’m curious about how someone kills one of your children in a minor way… Does this mean they leave your child just slightly dead? Barely deceased at all. Or does it mean they’ve killed them when they’re still quite young, thus mitigating the damage? It makes sense, I suppose. Far better someone were to kill my two month old, who I’ve barely gotten started with, than to kill my sixteen year old, wasting all the time and resources invested there. Maybe it’s a less serious crime to kill an infant—the parents haven’t had so long to get emotionally attached, and babies are easily replaced. The replacement process is generally regarded to be quite enjoyable, even. But to answer your question, yes god was punishing you, but not for your hubris or lack of faith. It was for cutting off that little old lady while driving to work last week. You remember, the one going 45mph on the lower deck of I-35? God might have let it go, but flipping her the bird through the rear window was just too much.

Julie

2004-04-06T16:38:00.000Z

You were punished because New Beck is not as much fun as Old Beck, and that’s not okay.  You lied, and you know deep in your soul that you lied.  Because even if two planes flew into a couple of buildings, you still like to have fun, you still like to laugh, you still like to groove.  And even in the good parts of Sea Change, you never shake your ass.  Shake your ass and love it!

tim thomas

2004-04-07T14:49:36.000Z

you people need to shut up.

by the way, i wax my bikini area with napalm.

Tim

2004-04-07T17:48:38.000Z

What’s up Brandon! I can’t believe you’re forging my name! And so badly. Everyone knows I sign my name Tim! I’m not talking to you anymore.

And I don’t shave my bikini area.

With napalm or otherwise.

Guess who

2004-04-07T19:05:35.000Z

I am most relieved to find out people can forge each other’s names.  Because I thought Tim had a lobotomy there for a second.  Because he would never say anything about waxing his bikini line with Napalm, whereas I can definitely see Brandon saying that.

Ian

2004-04-07T21:10:48.000Z

Stop talking about Tim and Brandon! Talk about me! IAN!

I am so sad. You guys suck.

Le Easter

2004-04-07T22:48:17.000Z

The reason I don’t write journal entries is because I am afraid this would happen to me. Thank you Ian, I owe you a dollar from my trauma jar.

Real Ian

2004-04-08T04:44:25.000Z

Gee thanks Le, except one problem… I didn’t write that… you see someone out there wants to make me look like some attention-starved neurotic self-centered actory type… which obviously I’m not… It’s just that I’m so cool that everyone feels they must make some comment on my blog, even if it is just serving their own twisted ends and has nothing to do with any natural topic of discussion! On a side note, if one was to bikini wax with napalm, would you be able to bathe afterwards? Just as a practical question…

Tara

2004-04-08T07:23:30.000Z

In order to say something remotely concerning the original blog, I’m not a Beck fan. I haven’t been able to get into any of it that I’ve heard, but I am not anti-Beck or anything.

All you peeps should have received your e-vites by now, in fact I know that most of you have seen it. (I can tell these things.) I just want to make sure that everyone knows that I desperately want you all to come over, and being an attention-starved neurotic ego-centric bloggy type I will most certainly cry if I don’t get a decent crowd.

So please do come to my party, and don’t flame me.

bps

2004-04-08T15:30:53.000Z

Hm? What’s going on here? I just woke up.

Who are you people?