I really should be doing something responsible.   I have a filthy house that has really only been cleaned once since Stella was born nearly 2 months ago, and the upstairs hasn’t been cleaned at all.   Our bedroom looks like a warzone.   I need to compose a letter to my credit card company telling them I don’t accept their new terms.   I need to send money to Administaff for my insurance benefits.   I have a thousand and one things I need to do.   But I can’t find the motivation to do them at all.   I feed and tend to Stella and all the energy I have left for after that is to do the endless piles of laundry and keep the kitchen reasonably clean.   Then I waste time on my   new laptop, which is unfortunately a powerful timewaster.   I just have no energy.   It’s so difficult, since I used to be the “go, go, go” type of person.   I was so responsible and always needed to be doing something, I couldn’t stand to sit still.   Now all I want to do is sit still.   It’s really sad.   I don’t even want to do productive things while sitting still.   I need to print pictures, set up a blog for stella, download pictures from the camera, organize the website pictures, a 1,001 more things, but I prefer to put pictures on my ipod and read silly gossip blogs. Â

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Comments

Kate

2006-05-21T03:29:15.000Z

You’re doing an amazing job with the lovely Stella.  All I can see in those pictures is how happy and contented she is and how much you guys are enjoying her.